The colors of Fall

Fall!!!

A change of seasons!


I was driving down I-20 coming in to Birmingham from Anniston and I noticed a hillside just on the side of the interstate that took my breathe away! The shades of gold, red, green, brown, orange all against a fall blue sky were beautiful! It brought to mind a random thought that I commonly have in my mind, and a conversation I have with my kids quite often: "How many hairs do I have on my head, Mommy?" I say, "Too many to count, only God can number the hairs on your head."

I guess that view reminded me of how God knows exactly what we need at all times even when we don't!

Just some random notes...

Well guys, it is SPRING!!! The first bar-b-que at our home will take place his weekend and I am super excited! The kids are stoked about the glow in the dark Easter egg hunt! AND hubby is ready to do some major grilling! I have learned the basics to cooking. Thanks to Pinterest! and have settled in to being what God wants me to be - although I am not sure what that is yet. However, it it a very relaxing and interesting mindset. There is so much I long for, so much I want and so much I want to do, but at the end of the day I feel so fulfilled... Like I said, Interesting!

I have been tugging with an internal demon known as the mommy side of me. Since I am now unemployed, being a Mommy is just what I want to do. I made the comment to someone today that hugs and kisses don't pay the bills. So I am going to be creative and find something useful to do with my time. Surely there is a way to have both?

A time of reflection..

My Pawpaw is constantly on my mind. He was my source of Comfort when I was a child. I feel such comfort recently and I often wonder if you can hear and respond to people from Heaven? I am sure that this feeling is the same peace I felt when he was near me as a kid. Amazing.....

Insanity

What is the difference in “Giving your life to God” and Giving CONTROL your life to God”? I use to think there was none. Boy was I wrong.

A young child was baptized in a small little Baptist Church in Irondale Alabama at age 8. Oh, she prayed and prayed. Told people of the love of God, and eventually all the bliss faded away. Then that same girl found herself in predicament after predicament over and over throughout her life, needless to say, she prayed and prayed and overcame time after time. Again and again, she would fall, pray, and be helped back up. Then after long periods in her life where God was there when needed, but pushed away when “not” needed, she realized that she never gave CONTROL over. She still ran things and he was her back up plan. Wow, some nerve, huh?

Addictions? I KNOW ADDICTIONS. Financial burdens? Yep that one too. Loss, Pain, Suffering, Betrayl, Abandonment? Boy I definitely know those!

But then, one day, I decided to let God run things and let me BE the plan

How did all this come about? Wow, who knows? It isn’t just like I thought it one day and said, you know, maybe things are so crazy around here because I insist on driving. The old adage has floated around my head a lot “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results”. YA THINK?

But then, things just started happening. Oddities I can’t put words to. Financial support and blessings I can’t account for. Positions and doors opening I didn’t know existed. My husband transformed into a man of God! That in its self should have told me something. But I am hard headed… Right? I continued to pull things back from him that I “gave” him to handle. Hello? Anyone else see what’s wrong with this picture?  I really think I can do a better job than HE? No, not at all, I think I can do it quicker, more efficiently and check it off the list. AH HA then, who holds the list? If I hold the list, and I am the “time keeper”, and I am the one who checks things off, how then can I expect God’s perfect timing to work in my life? Simple, I can’t!

I am not a “religious” person, but I am a child of God. I don’t know much about Theology, but I know that things work better when I let God Be in Control of what HE created! I also know that I personally enjoy all of the positives that have developed in my life because of this mentality. So call it what you will, I just want you to know two things: 1. God’s timing is PERFECT! And 2. HE will never take you to something and abandon you. He will always bring you through it if you trust in HIS plan.